Sunday, May 31, 2009

i have just read that "The average age to get married for a bride is 29 and that of a groom is 31" Call me old fashioned but dont'cha think that's a bit old. i think that by the time i'm that old, i want to be settled down with a Loveeeely husband & to be fulfilling my dreams of life!
So the phrase "Til death do us part.." seems a little over the top. The amount of unsucessful weddings nowadays is ridiculous! So therefore, the saying cannot of meant much to all of those couples who are no longer "part" can it?!

That's why i actually refuse to rush into relationships anymore. I think i've found what's considered as my perfect man, but only time will tell.
Im quite happy that he has finally acknowledged my existance tbh, cos i was getting a bit depressed about the whole subject!

Im gonna go do something nice for my mother now!

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Okayy, So this isn't a good picture, but the point is; Look at the sky! BLUE.  Actual blue sky in England. who'd of thought it eh?
This week, the weather has been so good, that im actually contemplating wether i've actually caught a bit of a tan! Yesterday, me & my childhood friend who i dont really get to see much went out to the park. they only ever come round in the holidayss to stay with their grandparents - (my nextdoor neighbours) - so we took the great weather as an opportunity to spend some good'old quality time together! we decided to take my sister, her sister and my dog, jake, out for a walk down to the park. i have to say, i need to grow up! me & rachel spent about 15 minutes on the big swing, laughing and joking around, but eventually i started to feel rather ill and had to evacuate to the climbing frame! It was SO funny, and when i got home and got changed into my shorts & vest top, i actually had a tshirt mark from where i had caught the sun!
We spent the rest of the day sunbathing on the trampoline, but then they had to go home which was kinda sad cos i really love seeing them! 
Monday was just as hot too, & we went round to my nanna's for my Auntie's 40th birthday to have a nice family BBQ, which turned out surprisingly enjoyable! usually, the whole family thing does my head in, cos you either have to attempt to make conversation with people that you don't necessary like, or you're stuck for words to answer all of the intense and unexpected questions that they always seem to throw at me!
"Boyfriend?" Anything to do with you?
 "So how's life?" Average.. Possibly the same as about 100000 other people'ss.. you know how it is.
"Plans for the future?" Erm, maybe to live.. you know.. breathe maybe? Eat/sleep/drink? the usual.
"Seen much of uncle Bob recently?" i have an uncle bob?!
"And what about grandad fred?" He's still alive?!

Im going to bed now.. Tomorrow is gonna be the hottest day of the year so far, & i have to work.
Just My LUCK!

Monday, May 25, 2009

Okay, so now i've officially left school. Friday 22nd May was actually one of the sadest days i have ever experienced, but at the same time, it was an absolutely amazingly happy day!
So! We got there in the morning -- & i made sure that i had my school t-shirt and permanent markers for everyone to sign my shirt with, & everyone had their camera's out! It was the wierdest thing just to look around and see so many people posing for pictures! Then, the atmosphere started to turn sad & miserable.. turned out that the whole year had 2 hours of maths revision to endure before we could even think of  having any fun! Ridiculous dont'cha think? That they make us have maths revision on the last day of school -- ever. So yarr, after maths, it was break time - & as i looked around, i realised that 50% of the people surrounding me were crying! ;( not good. if you know me well enough, then you'll know that i dont really deal well with people crying around me.. it just makes me cry with them! Signing everyone's books and shirts made me realise what it would be like to be famous i think -- How the hell can they think of what to write to complete strangers?! i didnt even know what to write to people who i've spent the last 5 years with!! The bell went and i honestly wanted this moment to last forever -- it was an amazing atmosphere, and i think that everyone was putting the past in the past and living for the moment!
So after a couple more minutes outside in the courtyard, we got called into the small hall, for some surprise.. We all knew that we had a leavers assembly, but everyone was pretty much 99% sure that they were gonna tell us that they had a party planned for us all. Turns out that after Mr. Morgans VERY cheesy speech, Mr Clarke & Miss Pyle's emotional talk, and Miss Sellers video of us all, they let us go home at dinner!! Mr Morgan put all the pictures from year 7 up onto the big board for everyone to see, and it was amazing how much everyone has changed, and how far everyone had come. So, we was left with about half an hour before the dinner bell went, and they let us have the time to take pictures, carry on signing tops and books and just generally spend the last half an hour together.

"i dont wanna close my eyes; i dont wanna fall asleep cos i miss you baby, and i dont wanna miss a thing."

Okay, so that was the song that was playing that made me & about 60% of the other people cry, It was VERY emotional..

Anyway, there was then a message send around that everyone should go to Tesco for 2pm, & we was all gonna go out. When i considered going, i was like "oh, i doubt many people will even show up tbh", but when i got there -- there was actually about 30 people there. Words can even describe how amazing the day and night was really - and i am so glad that it was spent with my bestfriendss & the people who im gonna miss the most!
You can see the pictures from 22/05/09 right here:
http://photobucket.com/JessicaStarbuck

Right now, im off to Adele's 40th BBQ!

Monday, May 18, 2009

Ahhhhh, i actually cannot get over the fact that a month tomorrow, it'll be my final exam, & there will be no more school ever again! im finding it quite hard to get my head around it at the moment tbh. i mean i've spent the last 5 years in the same place with the same people - & this time next month, everyone will be going their own ways & i probs wont even see some people again! i've come so far with these people, and gone through so much stuff, good & bad, but all in all, i doubt that i'd change anything that's happened over the last 5 years. i've made friends that will remain my bestfriends forever, & there are the people who i'll stay in touch with and then there are the odd few who i actually cant wait to get rid of! So, TopValley Class of 2009, i LOVE all of you guys. The past is the past now right? & right now, it's time that i knuckle down, revise & get these exams outa the way. Bilborough college here i come eh? There had better be some fit boyss there! im getting a serious lack of them in my life right now!!
Anyway, my lack of English skills are boring me & im pretty sure that they're boring you too - so imma go to bed now. i have my english lit tomorrow morning, & all going well, i think that i have a fair chance at passing english!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love
lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove
love love love

What a ridiculous word. So i recently thought that i was in love. Turns out that once you realise that its not ever gonna work out between you, the thing that you once thought was love just disappears. i take it that it wasn't really love in the first place then, right?
&;Hearts.

So Yeaaaah - apart from the whole "love" situation -- or lack of should i say? - everything else is going fine+dandy i reckon! Its the final month at school, & everyone seems to be getting quite emotional about it.. but i recieved my letter from Bilborough College this morning, and it made me so excited to leave school & get my ass to college and meet new people!
Exciiiiiiited!

imma chat somemore on msn right now & go to bed pretty soon. i've had some pretty late nights this week, as i went to see Girls Aloud on tuesday, and then have been harcore revising, so i think that i can only keep these eyes of mine open til around about 10 tonight! i'll post a few pictures of girls aloud up when i get them on my laptop, & tell you all about it tomorrow!
Cherio!

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Okay, so you know when someone you know walks past like "y'alright?", do you say "Hello" back, or do you say "Yes thanks+you?". i ALWAYS say "Hiiii" in this stupid tone, and then they just look back at me as if to say WTF? So i just thought that i'd ask ha.
Friday night, me & a few friends stayed over at another friends house, and it was actually quite amazing. Now, i regret going to be honest! i can't tell you actually how tired i am right now - & im about to go to bed, so im gonna make this post kinda short. Okay, so i got there at about 7-ish, and as soon as i walked through the door - (Which was infested with matching white plimsols which made me LOL) - i was handed a drink of WKD or summin' like that. In the space of an hour, i reckon i'd drank about 7 full glasses of alcopop, and then we'd moved on to cider. Funny stuff. By this time, the birthday girl was hammered!! it was hilarious. She must've fell over about 50 times, if not more - each time going with such a bang! Then, after a couple of hours, we had pizza & chips, which was lovely jubly, but then the birthday girl ran off & insisted on running around the streets of Bulwell. Okay, so if we were elsewhere, maybe i'd of agreed with her & gone with her, but in Bulwell, unless you have a deathwish, there was NO CHANCE that i was running around Bulwell!! Hahaha. Anyhoo, the night was amazing, even though we didnt go to sleep until 4am, & i had to be up again at 8 so that i could get a shower & stuffs for work.
Talk tomorrow? Cos im bloody nackeredddddd!
xx